i am a 10k human.



second song from the KOH+ collaboration (kou shibasaki fukuyama masaharu)- 最愛 themesong for the galileo movie[watch trailer here. though it's highly unlikely that they are going to show this in cinemas here]. yay. super different from their kiss shite. maybe i'll come to like it some day.

the inugami family (remake from the 1976 one by the same director) is out in theaters but i've still yet to go watch that. and kurosagi and hana yori dango final is going to be out soon.

on another note. i am back from the human race!! hahahahaa. run (or rather walked) with jasmime. we took a total of 1h42min. haha. i tot by the pace we were walking it will take us 2hrs and a half or something like that. of course we ran here and there but it was like 500m here and there? haha. of course we did run the first 2.5k when everyone else were running. but the first water point just made us so lazy that we dont feel like running anymore. damn i didnt bring my camera. apparently TeoSerLuck was there too. and joannepeh. though im not too excited to see the latter.

still tonnes of work undone. my lab. damn. i suck so much in c++. i really need to start mugging and all. stop playing and start mugging.

张国荣 - 我


was listening to this some time ago. wow. found the concert version on youtube. this is so.. nice. i like how this came out from leslie (the lyrics, the melody, the style that he sings) and at the same time it's quite ironic too that he had sung this song.

I am...what I am
我永远都爱这样的我
快乐是 快乐的方式不只一种
最荣幸是 谁都是造物者的光荣
不用闪躲 为我喜欢的生活而活
不用粉墨 就站在光明的角落

我就是我 是颜色不一样的烟火
天空海阔 要做最坚强的泡沫
我喜欢我 让蔷薇开出一种结果
孤独的沙漠里 一样盛放的赤裸裸

多么高兴 在琉璃屋中快乐生活
对世界说 什么是光明和磊落

the whole 'i am.. what i am' idea is so special when it comes out from leslie cheung. but ya. it's kind of ironic too.

HANABI


PV for Mr Children's new single. and he is still merging his words together when he sings. haha.

run run run.



this morning i managed to wake up even without an alarm clock. a symptom of me being too stressed up. i wake up without alarms on the first day of exams, first day of work and first day of school.

but this time round because ive ignored too many things for too long. and all the deadlines are suddenly all coming up.

and of course THAT thing. when can i pull out? all the red tape, bureaucracy and dealing with seniors are stressing me real out. i might have to sacrifice this weekend for something i could have withdrawn from long ago. nowadays im only looking forward to film school because the rest will all be in studios and i can momentarily forget abt all the shit and concentrate on a much simpler and enjoyable thing. even going to timbre cant bring my mind off it. damn. when is it going to end?

on the other note shumin (haha. surprisingly she can remember me. i suspect she's been secretly reading my blog. hahahaha.) showed us madonna's drowned world tour 2001. and we sort of analysed how it was edited, what msg it was giving. when i tot of mrchildren's 旅立ちの唄. my favourite live performance. [along side with eason's 浮誇 in get a life 2003] eh. it doesnt really send any msg across leh. why. haha. er. CU of sakurai's face to show that.. he is perspiring. hahaha. sorry.

why.so.serious.

from ST: Making friends or making out?

i didnt know that reading ST can make my blood boil too. hahahahahaa. i wouldnt say what this reader has written is all wrong, but isnt it a little too subjective on her side?

i dunno how adults think towards what the kids do nowadays, but isnt this a little too much? over-exaggerated. seriously. it's like my other blog entry which i wrote about this mother who wrote into ST complaining his son couldnt get into pharmacy. omg. think it abt man. what if ur son went into pharmacy, hated it and got CAP 2.0? u will just ruin his life la. and some time ago people wrote in to complain abt what students do in JCs. like poling and taupok.

i admit i hated orientation wk during my jc days. and yesh no one makes friends then. but uni is a completely different thing.

i went to school's famous (or rather infamous) camp and became part of the organising team for the next year. and yesh i was seriously surprised on the first day of camp. all the push-ups, 哥哥我要 crap. i was so seriously shocked. and of course all the pi pa gao and crazy forfeits. but somehow i got used to it after the first day. like how i used to tell my friends, you wont even consider the guys as guys. they are just yet another human being. but somehow it works. it kind of break the barrier btw people. because the forfeits are so jialat, somehow people could bond better.

and like how we tend to be separate into girls and guys, this kind of stuff sort of bring everyone tgt i feel. yes it's crazy. but we bonded better wa.

and she said that her nephews and nieces passed sweets. excuse me, we passed sweet wrappers la. and all the pi pa gao forfeits are so much worse than the push up.

and regarding people who are bad looking will be ostracized. i felt this was even worse in my AC times. during orientation, people were judged by their looks. on the other hand uni was better lor. and this is the truth everywhere. better looking people all tend to be treater better right. if school's a reflection of the society out there, then uni shd too. and i think it's already so much better than the world out there.

and abt her nieces and nephews who couldnt make friends during the camps. which uni student out there do not hang out with their camp/hall/oweek friends? it's those who dont go for camps who end up without any friends right. i mean this is the way uni is structured, it's very hard for u to make friends during school time. u have to make them even before school starts.

and no. sdu didnt give us money to make people do this kind of shit. they gave us money if we promise to do SP ah, mass dance ah. and other normal stuff that involve the guys and the girls to interact. the rest are all for the high.

hahahahaha. and quoting her line 'Are our youth being taught that physical attraction and touching are more important than appreciating another person's character?' this is so extreme. hahahaha. one camp and we are polluting our young minds. seriously. the guys' minds are polluted in army lor.

and 'Moreover, if youth are taught to focus on the heat and sexual attraction of young love, their relationships will never be healthy, wholesome and enriching.' hahaha. we shd show her our 'legs or boobs' tests la. another unsupported fallacious claim.

and she says that cos the camps do not have proper organiser. man. go get those professional ones that serve those stupid corperate leadership camps? this is uni leh.

and on the more objective side. this is university freshmen we are talking about. not immature kids. would reporting to ST work? so what kind of action does this lady want? report to the police? catch all us organising commitees? apparently she puts the blame on sdu. then why not on the society as a whole. we have come to this because we lack moral values. work on CME? start CME from nursery? i dunno.

if u are so scared. just send them to oweek. and see ur nieces and newphews yawn.

and another point. by pushing me to my limits, somehow i could adapt to uni life better. uni though seemingly similar to jc, has this certain different flavour to it. and only camps can orientate you into this environment. and its hills of staircases. urghhh.

okay. i have to admit my point of view is a little too subjective too. but my friends. u all have went through camps. what do u think?


on a side note. walked past lunar with eunice and bertrand just now when i realised eason was having an event inside. hai. let me in!!

regret.

米良美一 - もののけ姫


i've been telling myself once and again to never befriend the bitter 'R' word. and once and again i've fallen to it. hai hai hai.

when visiting clementi bookstore instead of finding the ccKO signals textbook, i fajian-ly went to look at the wonderful textbooks situated at the EE 2 bottom shelves because the mech engin shelves have ran out of space. when i was supposed to watch makioka sisters, i fj-ly started to surf into websites which i should not because there is nth i can do but to waste time. when i was out in library, i would fj-ly go to the RBR corner and find the John David Anderson textbook. and now im even thinking of selling my old textbooks so that i will have some money to buy THE textbook.

and the pain comes each time i try to explain to people. and more when people probe on. not that i am unhappy that someone ask. but because i can never give a reasonable answer as to why i chose this way.

hai. once and again im reminded of it and yet i have promised myself that that will be my only chance and to never think abt it again. not that i am really sian now. i love all the probability and c++ lessons and have nth to complain abt. i am anticipating my AI module to come. i even enjoy som which i tot i will not(i think watching nodame sort of make me appreciate music more).

this kind of remind me of the phrase from 'and i hate you so': 遺憾美。 maybe there is really sth very beautiful behind each thing u lost or have chosen to let go.

till now i feel like i've parted with something so beautiful and will need another 6months to forget all these.

so while i am still in the mood, a lousy joke.

two wrongs do not make a right,
but two wrights do make an aeroplane.

hahahahha. sorry.

明日は見えなくて。



getting very lazy to cap nowadays. but i couldnt resist capping truth's PV. nice. haha.

and i just realised that it's really heng that film school's going to be on every wed and thu because i have tue and wed 8am lecture. so i can only afford to slp late on weds and thurs because thu and fri are the days when i kind of have later lectures.

and can the school start a new gem along the line of "How to Gamble if You Must"? i really really want to take a gambling probability module. analytical methods of ece touches on probability but it's never shiok enough when u dont look at gambling right? like the whole system of TOTO and 4D which i have been thinking abt all these time. and of course casino odds ah. and of course include stuff like monty's hall that is along that line.

tmr is 11aug.

i just realised all my modules for the coming sem has wonderful names like signals, data structures and algorithm, digital design, analytical methods in ece and science of music. but all as hellish. hai. hai. hai. i was so close to mach number.

i shall not complain because i made this choice myself. cannot regret. do not whine. i shall learn to love structure. mach number. har? what is that. haha. my signals and fourier series will own the what mach number. haha.

hai.

anw, i just realised calefare is done by film formation. not bad leh. i like calefare. though fiona xie's character is a little irritating. oh. and first class's not bad too. haha. got sebastian tan la. nice.

now that sch's starting im starting to regret to not go for more camps. before sports camp we were too busy to do any other stuff. but now to think of it, camps are fun ah. the bathing part is always damn sian but the rest, fun!! haha. okay. nxt yr. act freshie. haha.


Arashi - Truth PV.
wa. love it. watch them live on utaban.

before school starts.

a daily dose of moonlight resonance really get me on the emotional high. it makes my blood boil when the bad guys argue their way through. it's like 'urgghhhhh..' but it does make me high feeling so angry. haha.

ahhhh. back to sawing my tool. havent done that a long time. and i think all these is making me a very emotional-less person; not that i dislike that. i want to be like tonyleung, totally emotional-less, how cool is that. (i heard he talks to mirrors as a child. woo. maybe i shall try that too.) there are people around me who can bring emotional-less to a really high level. i admire them!! not that i think it is good to not feel, but many a times i feel that what's affecting me should not affect the people around me. it's my problem then i should not trouble others right. a japanese way of thinking. and i truly admire the japanese for this. of course there are ppl who 走火入魔 and go round killing people, but ya. haha. hey. i shd make this into a film la. a person who shows no emotional at all but inside is full of emotions. omg. i can think of so many reasons why one should keep all his emotional to himself. this is such a good film idea la. haha. woahhhh.

oh ya. and u know how it's funny when u see people who around who are so similar to how when u are younger. it's so.. funnily strange. it's like seeing yourself all over again on another person. sometimes i do feel sad for people who are so like my past, come on grow up man. i WAS like this, not i AM like this. u are out-dated. ou-biang!! haha.

oh man. this is such an emo-ing post. hai.

oh. and i just realise eason sang 愛拼才會贏 in one of his earlier concerts. haha.

was watching ep8 when i suddenly remember this thing that i wanted to blog long ago but kept forgetting. my point is:

i think there are people who make good leaders. and others who just suck at it. and it makes my blood boil seeing bad leaders leading. but who truly knows what am i thinking and feeling. haha. i am the master of disguise.

but the thing is. i am a strong believer that there are good leaders and on the other side of the bell curve, there are really bad leaders too. have met so many good leaders in my life, but slowly i am starting to see bad leaders too. i guess i am lucky and have not met many in my early part of my life. i believe a good leader must have certain quality to make them so. it may not be nice to say this, but i strongly believe there are people whose character will make them better sidekicks, and may even shine better as a sidekick. people say that as u age u become wiser, but this is not abt whether they are wise. they can be a wise sidekick but never a good leader.

ah. it is so good to get this off my shoulders. of course we may be a little too early to judge since we are all going to grow. but i guess once we start to work, many will start to mature and might become a good leader. till now, many of us are still bad leaders, who many a times just lack the ability to think ahead.

i have met a person who can think so well ahead. most probably because of what this person does for his/her spare time. this is good. but this person can get a little too worked up and emotional and thus need more to be a leader. i guess what many of us have to learn is to know how to think ahead, be firm and to understand team dynamics and of course an ability to keep your cools.

and this post is dedicated to so many people out there whom i have met. i must admit a large portion of us are not born to lead. sharpen your saw. grow with each experience!!

listening to mayday's hokkien songs make me want to learn hokkien too. a friend said sth recently very true 'have u ever heard a really bad word in mandarin? not dialect leh. pure mandarin. got what bad word?' true hor. i have not tot of this before. now i know i need to learn hokkien so that i can use all my might to curse them when i am angry. now i only know how to tmd and this is not enough.