my summer.
Thursday, March 5, 2009 by yish
the bitterness of rejection. hai hai hai hai. engin rejected my application as an exchange student for summer school in hk. hai hai hai hai. why... i am already regretting not choosing hk as my sep destination, and now u are denying me from going there..
okay. now the only option is to apply straight to the hk uni, but that will cost us around US$750 more, which is like 1,158.19 SGD. hai. a single special sem mod is 650bucks and now we have to pay twice.
how. but i am still so tempted to go. it's like if i dont go now, im not going to go anymore. year 3 summer i'll most prob be in tw (and if they are not going to kick me out) and year 4 they will still allow meh.
and if i am not going. what shd i do this summer? VIP? but that is like a whole 12weeks of work. plus our supervisor is going to write a report to our mentor. i dont want. production+camp? but this will be like last year. and i felt i was wasting my summer last year.
hmm. maybe i should organise our own overseas trip this summer.
my wish for this week. to become more 醒目. i dont know why but after entering uni im totally bak qiu tia stamp. everything also cannot do well, im not as smart as how i was when i was working during that 7mths. and im really worried that if i go on intern the people there will just hate me because im not responding smartly enough. wake up and be less of trouble to others!! and i jolly well know that adults tend to hate me (i am not joking. seriously. out of 10 adults i meet in my life, 8 of them will hate me when they first see me. i dont know whether it's how i look or what. or i just am so bak qiu tai stamp that i cant do anything well. i know the k one hates me right. all because of the stupid incident. and jiaolian too. and so many others.), i need to outsmart them. and work 2 times more efficiently.
okay. back to my report.
okay. now the only option is to apply straight to the hk uni, but that will cost us around US$750 more, which is like 1,158.19 SGD. hai. a single special sem mod is 650bucks and now we have to pay twice.
how. but i am still so tempted to go. it's like if i dont go now, im not going to go anymore. year 3 summer i'll most prob be in tw (and if they are not going to kick me out) and year 4 they will still allow meh.
and if i am not going. what shd i do this summer? VIP? but that is like a whole 12weeks of work. plus our supervisor is going to write a report to our mentor. i dont want. production+camp? but this will be like last year. and i felt i was wasting my summer last year.
hmm. maybe i should organise our own overseas trip this summer.
my wish for this week. to become more 醒目. i dont know why but after entering uni im totally bak qiu tia stamp. everything also cannot do well, im not as smart as how i was when i was working during that 7mths. and im really worried that if i go on intern the people there will just hate me because im not responding smartly enough. wake up and be less of trouble to others!! and i jolly well know that adults tend to hate me (i am not joking. seriously. out of 10 adults i meet in my life, 8 of them will hate me when they first see me. i dont know whether it's how i look or what. or i just am so bak qiu tai stamp that i cant do anything well. i know the k one hates me right. all because of the stupid incident. and jiaolian too. and so many others.), i need to outsmart them. and work 2 times more efficiently.
okay. back to my report.