i'm back. with a super cool tan now that i can go round posing as a swimmer. hah. is this cool or what. haha.

so anw, yup, pre-camp was over. csi was quite a flop and i've got a lot of things that i think shd change. need to put in more effort. need to do better man. till everyone will say 'wow. this is better than last year's!' and of course to help around. i keep telling myself to think of better station and beach games but still no inspiration.

and on the last day everyone was really tired that everyone's temper wasnt too good. miscommunication and wrong tone in speaking. haiya.

saw an accident and a robbery the night me eunice and wenhao went to esplanade. wow. i think the nxt time we go we might just (quoting wenhao) see a rocket hit esplanade. and we will be famous.

shooting tmr. and meeting on monday. hai. sian. so matter stuff to settle. as how elizabeth was saying. last time when we were young we see our friends who are very busy and admire them. cos we will think that they are so busy they must be popular. and we try to imitate and stuff ourselves with many activities over the hols. i admit i learn a lot a lot this hols. but i havent slept normally for very long too. and not that i suddenly got popular or what. im still the same and im left with lesser time for my friends.

im happy that im going over to ntu to study what i want to learn. but i think i will miss the people in nus. hai. not that the school is so small i can see everyone everyday. i just hope there's meeting up and stuff after this hols la.

okay. first to talk abt what's making me feel so tired now. just accepted ntu's offer. and now there's tonnes of stuff to do. withdraw from school. matriculation again. omg. must take x-ray again. super sian. and this and that. so many things to do.

but again. today (or rather yesterday) was quite a happy day la. yay.

蕾　ap bank fes'07


just like crying, in the middle of a smile smeared with perspiration
no one can be recognised
thats why i don't know about your tears

its still burning, lighting up my heart
i recieved from you the tender light, proof of unconditional love

while being enveloped by the gentle spot under the sun, i whisper into your back
even if a day like this comes again
surely, surely, surely, you would be able to understand

vanishing and blooming, this year too the flower bud is waiting for me
the petal dancing in the wind that my palm can't grasp
stops on the shoulder lightly
skillfully riding it and showing a smile, i remember you by myself

in the valley of buildings, sometimes buried dreams bud too
isn't that what makes flowers bloom? you can't choose where your dreams will blossom

the silhouettes we dropped on this town, they're all looking for the light
even as time overlaps and flows over itself
surely, surely, surely the day we grow out of this will come

on the breezeless track, the beautiful sky of may feels blue and lonely
the motionless scattered clouds will always be floating
there is no place i can return to anymore
this is the way i am, in the whispering wind it dances to the ground with a flash, my tears

almost scattering, the re-opening petals are like you
giving time and again to these hands that grasp at the silent encouragements

vanishing and blooming, this year too the flower bud is waiting for me
even now i still can't catch the dreams you painted
stopping right beside me
opening gracefully just like a smile, i keep looking for the flower bud, in the sky

涙こぼしても　汗にまみれた笑顔の中じゃ
誰も気づいてはくれない　だから
あなたの涙を　僕は知らない

絶やす事無く　僕の心に灯されていた
優しい明かりは　あなたがくれた
理由無き愛の証

柔らかなひだまりが包む背中に
ぽつり　話しかけながら
いつかこんな日が来ることも
きっと　きっと　きっと
わかってたはずなのに

消えそうに　咲きそうな
蕾が今年も僕を待ってる
手の平じゃ掴めない　風に踊る花びら
立ち止まる肩に　ひらり
上手にのせて　笑ってみせた
あなたを思い出す　ひとり

ビルの谷間に埋もれた夢も　いつか芽吹いて
花を咲かすだろう　信じた夢は
咲く場所を選ばない

僕らこの街に落とされた影法師
みんな光を探して
重なり合う時の流れも
きっと　きっと　きっと
追い越せる日が来るさ

風の無い　線路道
五月の美空は　蒼く淋しく
動かない千切れ雲　いつまでも浮かべてた
どこにももう戻れない
僕のようだと　ささやく風に
きらり舞い落ちてく　涙

消えそうに　咲きそうな
蕾が今年も僕を待ってる
今もまだ掴めない　あなたと描いた夢
立ち止まる僕のそばで
優しく開く　笑顔のような
蕾を探してる　空に

kaze ap bank fes'07

私は今まで、人に自分を偽って接してきた。

fact of the day 2june2008:
If i were to use one word to describe myself -
ditto.

as in i see myself as someone like the pokemon ditto. and this is one character that i cant change.

sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian.

ahhhhhh. im so bored but i dont want to go and bathe and sleep. u know there are days when u get so bored u go msn and see whether u have any friends online. then u proceed to facebook and to youtube and still cant find anything to quench your boredness.

i am so bored. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.